Ug. I have writers block and it sucks ass. I’ve been trying to write a piece since Tuesday and it just alludes me. I can’t even put together a good intro. This happens when I am asked to write something, not something that comes up out of my soul. I HAVE to be able to get through this crap.
At least I can write a damn blog entry.
Well, I think I’ve solved my blogging issue. For the longest time I have wanted to be able to blog/post to my website but it’s a pain in the ass to then go over to LJ and reformat the post…then put in any LJ coding and then finally post! I was using Movable Type and an LJ crossposting script, but it wouldn’t let me post the personal posts “friends only” on LJ. Well that little problem is solved. gifted me a version of Pmachine (which I really appreciate) but it had the same LJ limits as far as crossposting. For some reason I went back and messed around with my WordPress install and actually found a plug-in that will allow me to pick all the variables that I have on LJ and post straight to LJ from WP. So now I just need to recode my pages into WP. The next job after that is to move all my domains over to miss ‘s servers. She’s taught me so much about shell access and I truly appreciate it. Thanks Marina!
There is still many things to manipulate, but I think this is gonna work for me!
Wish me luck!
Tonight something sparked me to reflect. I’m no longer that insecure person that needed someone to validate me. I know who I am, what I want, and what I will and will not accept. I am an individual. I can only control things that I do and I am responsible for. I have worth based on how I feel about me, not how someone else feels about me. If I am with another human being sexually, emotionally, or physically, it doesnt mean that I am part of them or that they are a part of me. We can fit together and work together but we never will be a whole person but two (or more…because I’m poly)distinct individuals. Nothing is forever, and that is the way of nature. I now enjoy moments in time much more than places or things. Building good solid connections with friends is one of the greatest joys in life. I am a transsexual. I am beautiful. I am a genderqueer. I am unique… did I tell you I’m beautiful? For the first time in my life I actually believe it. I am a good writer. I am learning every day and that is what makes me want to wake up, not a body next to me.
Growing into this has been one of the best things that has ever happened in my life. I am happy. I am content. Today is a new day!