Tonight something sparked me to reflect. I’m no longer that insecure person that needed someone to validate me. I know who I am, what I want, and what I will and will not accept. I am an individual. I can only control things that I do and I am responsible for. I have worth based on how I feel about me, not how someone else feels about me. If I am with another human being sexually, emotionally, or physically, it doesnt mean that I am part of them or that they are a part of me. We can fit together and work together but we never will be a whole person but two (or more…because I’m poly)distinct individuals. Nothing is forever, and that is the way of nature. I now enjoy moments in time much more than places or things. Building good solid connections with friends is one of the greatest joys in life. I am a transsexual. I am beautiful. I am a genderqueer. I am unique… did I tell you I’m beautiful? For the first time in my life I actually believe it. I am a good writer. I am learning every day and that is what makes me want to wake up, not a body next to me.
Growing into this has been one of the best things that has ever happened in my life. I am happy. I am content. Today is a new day!